“Candidly, rocky past can give a person awesome present and in subsequence, defying future or more successes. Indeed, one’s life journey becomes so satisfying, so fulfilling and do great, when he has learned the wisdom of shifting that inward eye – to and fro..”
— ADBA :)
“There’s a boy in my mind and he knows I’m thinking of him.
All my way to the day and the night the stars shine above me.
He’s been gone for some time but I know I truly love him.
And I’m singing a song, hoping he’ll be back when he hears it.
If your love’s gone away just like mine you feel like crying.
Sing along maybe once maybe twice, let’s try it together.
Some sweet day no one knows he’ll return and you’ll be happy.
Shout it sweet in as song, listen to your heart it is singing.”
TRUST —- a four letter word, short but full of contents. How will you ever regain a trust?
Can you let A PERSON break your trust?
or will someone let their selves ruin a trust of another person ?
How important is this word to you?
I don’t know when was the last time I cried just because someone broke my trust. I can’t remember if it was forgotten or I just don’t want to remember. Anyway, I still learned to trust another person again and it was hell hard to do. Now, I’m wishing “Sana hindi ko nalang natutunan ulit ” .. the only thing na nasabi ko is .. ” stupid.” Iniisip ko kung masyado lang ba akong positive sa buhay ko para mangyari lahat ng bagay na kagaya nito o sadyang ang tanga ko dahil hindi ako namimili ng pagkakatiwalaan ..
I became happy after doom ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT IT WAS JUST FOR A WHILE.
I can’t understand.. I don’t know what to think .. I’m running out of words to say .. PAIN. Will this be enough? I’m scattered again. no, I was never left alone.. I leaved. Yes, this time I took the chance that I never had.. To leave is the best way to exit just to save everything that is left. Why? Because fairytales are never true. NO SUPERHEROES to save you from dark. NO MAN will shed your tears for good and no songs nor day will make you feel happier than being alone.
I took the chance to walk away, To leave and save myself from being ruined. I know it may kill even my soul, but again I’m doing this to keep what’s left for me .. to have what I never had and to give what I never gave.
*Regrets may come along the way and it will torn every single memory we had regardless of its kind, We will miss things we had shared, Kisses we spill, tight hugs we gave and times we consumed together but this.. All of this were just A FAKE inhumane acts. Funny that we need to let go of things we never had at all. I wish you luck.. Take care :)
“TRUST, we can destroy its essence but will never ever again handle its benefits.” Trust but never at your most.
Love but never without limitations. Forgive but never learn to forget for this is the only armor you can have to learn your lessons.
JUST LET GO OF THINGS YOU NEVER HAD.
-fin
#(c)
- Kapag wala na siyang efforts.
- Tinatamad na siyang katext ka.
- Laging may dahilan kapag gusto mo siyang makita.
- Wala nang time.
- Laging galit o masungit.
- Kapag hindi ka na niya sinusuyo kapag galit ka.
- Kapag nagwalk-out siya hindi ka na niya hahabuli.
- Kapag sinabi niyang “BREAK NA…
“Your heart might be bruised, but it will recover
and see the beauty of life once more.
It happen before, it will happen again I’m sure.
When someone else leave, it is because someone else is about to arrive.
I’ll find love again.”
-fin.
Ayaw mo na ba?
Simpleng tanong pero kung iisipin napakasakit. Diba?! Lalo na kapag hindi mo na maintindihan yung nararamdaman mo, kung mahal mo pa ba siya or hindi na.
“I am going to say this again: I will support whatever you want to do, because this is your life and your decision. But I want you to know that I’ll be with you for the long haul, no matter what. You’re still you and I love you.”
-Fin.
#October 3, 12. 12:44 am
“I don’t know how to explain the love I feel towards him. It never quit. It never died. It just got stronger. There have been lots of mistakes in my life. But I never regretted loving him.. I love him so much, you see. I’ll be gone in the grave with him by my side and that love will still be burning bright.”
-Fin
#Last night note.
Yan din tanong ko sa sarili ko eh. Bakit nga ba single pa din ako? Charot! HAHA :)
I’ll site some reasons. Hindi lang reason ko, pati na din yung ibang mga single.
- Destiny addict -Bahala na daw ang tadhana. Siya yung naniniwala sa serendipity, soulmates, and stuffs like that.
- Perfectionist. Like for guys, gusto ata maging girlfriend eh si Barbie na hindi tumatanda, or Diyosa. And for girls, gusto ata neto mala… sino ba pinakagwapo? yun na yun. HAHAHA
- Busy-busyhan -Busy sa work, schoolstuffs, and kung ano ano pa.
- Friendship Theory -Masaya na at secretly inlove sa friend. Yung tipong ayaw masira yung friendship nila or kung ano mang meron sila kaya ayaw gumawa ng move.
- Nagaantayan -Hinihintay ni girl si guy gumawa ng move. Si guy naman, natotorpe. Either nahihiya, or nagaantay ng right time. MY GAS! Walang ibang right time. Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa? :)
- Born-to-be-one -Nahuhumaling sa idea ng single blessedness. Parang ako, sa sobrang pagkasaya sa pagiging single, nalimutan ko na kung pano magkaroon ng someone. XD
- Happy-Go-Lucky -Tikim tikim lang ang trip sa buhay. Puro pagpapakasaya. Kung san masaya, dun siya.
- Wrong Time -Feeling niya laging may tamang panahon for love. What you need to know is, there is no right or wrong time. It just depends on how you’ll say it.
- Wrong Place -Feeling eh nasa maling lugar. Duh. Kahit sa Mt. Everest pa yan or Siberia, basta ba sincere ka at wala kang gagawing masama eh go na. :)
- Rated PG -Depende kay Mommy and Daddy. Or probably, strict ang parents. Sa panahon ngayon, di na uso ang strict ang parents. Kung mahal mo, go na. Itago mo na lang sa parents mo. XD Isa pa, hindi naman parents mo ang pakikisamahan nung guy eh. Ikaw. Kaya why depend it on them?
- Traumatic Experience -Minsan nang nasaktan ng sobra, kaya ayaw na maulit. Like in my case, that’s probably the main reason why I’m still single and doesn’t want to be commited YET. Masasaktan lang naman din eh bakit pa susubukan? XD Pero siyempre, pano mo malalaman, kung hindi mo pa rin naman susubukan. Di ba?
- EX to the NTH Power -Kunwaring naka-move on pero si walang kamatayang EX pa rin ang gusto. Remember, kaya nga tinawag na EX kasi part of the past na. If things didn’t work out, let it go. Ibig sabihin hindi kayo para sa isa’t isa. Sa laki ng population ng Philippines, imposibleng di ka makahanap ng mas better for you. So move on! :)
Ayan, para sa ating mga single, wag kayong ma-pressure kung sa tingin niyo ay napagiiwanan na kayo ng mga kaibigan o kakilala ninyo na hindi na single. Learn to love yourself first before you learn how to love others. Loving starts with you, yourself.
But take note: “Being single might suck at some times” :)
Marry me
“Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I’ve had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won’t let them see
But there’s one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry Me
Today and every day
Marry Me
If I ever get the nerve to say
Hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I’ll wear out the words I love
And you’re beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me
Today and every day
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
Promise me
You’ll always be
Happy by my side
I promise to
Sing to you
When all the music dies
And marry me
Today and everyday
Marry me
If I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will
Say you will
Marry me”
— One of my favorite song ever! Every time I hear this song I feel in love over and over again. ♥
I woke up today,
with thoughts of you in my head.
Loving the feeling,
when you’re here right by my side.
Please come back make this dream real.
Please say you’ll stay with me still.
Cos I can’t get enough of this
I miss you, I do.
-Fin.
PROMISE.
Since this is what you wanted
Then I’ll just walk away
You’ll have your time to think of all the things and what you need
While I’m gone and away
Is this really what you wanted
Then I will let you go
I’ll be keeping all my fears
Though I’m drowning in my tears
With a thought
Of a life without you
But if someday you’ll need a friend
I promise I won’t let you down
I’ll be there for you
Right there beside you
I promise
Is this really what you needed?
Then I will say goodbye
All the memories that we’ve shared
Will be running in my head
I’ll be thinking about you
Just thinking about you
Coz if one day things don’t feel so right
I am someone you can call
If you feel you’ve no one to turn to I’m here
Coz if this is what you needed
I won’t let you see me cry
And all my sleepless nights
I’ll be waiting for your call
I’ll be dreaming about you
Just dreaming about you
-Fin.
“If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself. If I’m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system. The little experience of life I’ve had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion-and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them. And if nothing belongs to me, the there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine; it’s best to live as if today were the first or last day of my life.”
——— Wooo! Hangga’t kaya ko pa.. Hangga’t nadadala ko pa.. Hangga’t ganito pa.. Hangga’t maaari.. ayaw kong mag labas ng mga nararamdaman ko ngayon.. Sana wag akong sumabog. Ayaw ko talagang malaman ng kahit na sino yung totoo.. Saken na lang muna to. :’) *SiGH!*
“So do not start worrying: ‘Where will my food come from? Or my drink? Or my clothes?(These are the things that pagans are always worried about.) Your Father in heaven knows that you need all these things.’” —Matthew 6: 31-32, TEV
“Don’t for a minute worry about careless rebels…”
Beloved, don’t worry about having to conform with how the people in this world act— how they become scared easily, how they worry, how they work everytime and miss the good times of their lives, or where they find all their happiness or pleasure. They are seeking temporary and breakable things, no matter how shiny these may seem.
You, on the other hand, are different. You are a child of God. You are His responsibility, the carrier of His promises. Stop asking yourself, ‘Am I not supposed to do things the way they do? Shouldn’t I think like them also?’ because you were not made for the things they bathe themselves in. You are a person of royalty. You were made for so much more— things that are permanent, eternal, and grand.
You know what you have to do? Just soak yourself in Fear of God, or worship. Contemplate your Father’s love and mercy. Meditate on His goodness and claim His promises. Just think of everything that is ABOUT HIM, beloved, instead of worrying. You know you don’t have to take things the world’s way. Your security is in your Savior. Your assurance is anchored on the Cross. You are different in a heavenly way, beloved. Therefore, be confident, not doubtful of your standing, because it is God, not you, who will take you safely to your future.
